Monday, June 28, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
its 5.55 am and im thinking..
we dont know what life holds for us, what will happen tommorow or even later today but all we can control is our reaction to it. we must stand up for what we believe in...our values and our principles no matter how small. i dont know exactly what the next decade of my life will hold but i do know that i intend to work hard and really give it my best shot..
i am so ready to leave though..the month that i have left seems a month too long even though i am desperately clinging on it to in order to process my visa and other logisitical stuff but a part of me is yearning to be free and spread my wings..
perhaps going abroad gives me the perfect opportunity to do that..
i am so ready to leave though..the month that i have left seems a month too long even though i am desperately clinging on it to in order to process my visa and other logisitical stuff but a part of me is yearning to be free and spread my wings..
perhaps going abroad gives me the perfect opportunity to do that..
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Letter to My Future Self
Dear Future Self,
I know that right now you are feeling lost, confused, and dazed. Like the walls are caving all over you and the career path you once loved and cherished somehow is making you miserable and maybe you even are thinking of or wanting to quit because you have had not any sleep for the past how many ever days and your mind just seems slower and you are just tired. But rest assured that your dream is worth it. You came into medicine for a reason and think of all of the sacrifices you have made to get to this point. I know no one said it would be easy but no one also told you how hard it would be. Maybe you feel like you have no one to talk to, no one that understands how you really feel. However, I know you and have known you for a long time now and know with certainty and conviction that you have wanted to become a physician for a long time and not because it sounded nice or because your parents forced you into it but because you wanted to make a positive impact in the world, you wanted to be a healer.
Everyone can quit, but the people that hang on tighter and face the challenges head on are the ones that are victorious. So whatever you are going through right now, whether that be a difficult exam, a horrible attending, berating comments about going to a carribean medical school, let it not get to you. Because the only thing that matters is what you think of yourself and how much you can handle.
You have already made so many sacrifices for medicine, moving halfway across the world to study it, being in a large debt, emotionally and mentally investing in it so many year.
Remember that nothing in life you really want comes easy and all of your hardships are worth it if you improve someone’s quality of life.
Please do not become bitter and resentful. I know that the current health care system both in the US as well as other parts in the world can be frustrating with its red tape, malpractice insurance or just the fact that everything is based on a business model than patients.
I know the material at times is too much to handle and your brain feels like mush but whenever you feel like you are overwhelmed and can’t handle anymore, just be patient with yourself and all will be well, I guarantee it.
I know you and what you have wanted for so long so don’t let anyone or anything deter you from your dream.
Always remember, the reason you went into medicine is to address the needs of those people whose voices are often left unheard and provide care for those who do not have access to it.
I know that your heart is true and your intentions are pure but sometimes you tend to be overly critical of yourself and you have a very fragile self concept. These are things you need to work on because there will always be someone putting you down or something that won’t work out.
Life doesn’t come in neatly carved chocolate pieces, but it’s more like the box of chocolates that has been lying in the sun and is melted. So it gets messy, sticky and all over. But that’s ok. It will all be ok.
Don’t freak out and panic as you sometimes have a tendency to do both, this too shall pass but each day work harder try harder and even when you feel like you can’t go anymore hang in there.
I believe in you.
Sincerely,
Your Present Self who has not yet been disillusioned by the challenges of a life of a medical student
I know that right now you are feeling lost, confused, and dazed. Like the walls are caving all over you and the career path you once loved and cherished somehow is making you miserable and maybe you even are thinking of or wanting to quit because you have had not any sleep for the past how many ever days and your mind just seems slower and you are just tired. But rest assured that your dream is worth it. You came into medicine for a reason and think of all of the sacrifices you have made to get to this point. I know no one said it would be easy but no one also told you how hard it would be. Maybe you feel like you have no one to talk to, no one that understands how you really feel. However, I know you and have known you for a long time now and know with certainty and conviction that you have wanted to become a physician for a long time and not because it sounded nice or because your parents forced you into it but because you wanted to make a positive impact in the world, you wanted to be a healer.
Everyone can quit, but the people that hang on tighter and face the challenges head on are the ones that are victorious. So whatever you are going through right now, whether that be a difficult exam, a horrible attending, berating comments about going to a carribean medical school, let it not get to you. Because the only thing that matters is what you think of yourself and how much you can handle.
You have already made so many sacrifices for medicine, moving halfway across the world to study it, being in a large debt, emotionally and mentally investing in it so many year.
Remember that nothing in life you really want comes easy and all of your hardships are worth it if you improve someone’s quality of life.
Please do not become bitter and resentful. I know that the current health care system both in the US as well as other parts in the world can be frustrating with its red tape, malpractice insurance or just the fact that everything is based on a business model than patients.
I know the material at times is too much to handle and your brain feels like mush but whenever you feel like you are overwhelmed and can’t handle anymore, just be patient with yourself and all will be well, I guarantee it.
I know you and what you have wanted for so long so don’t let anyone or anything deter you from your dream.
Always remember, the reason you went into medicine is to address the needs of those people whose voices are often left unheard and provide care for those who do not have access to it.
I know that your heart is true and your intentions are pure but sometimes you tend to be overly critical of yourself and you have a very fragile self concept. These are things you need to work on because there will always be someone putting you down or something that won’t work out.
Life doesn’t come in neatly carved chocolate pieces, but it’s more like the box of chocolates that has been lying in the sun and is melted. So it gets messy, sticky and all over. But that’s ok. It will all be ok.
Don’t freak out and panic as you sometimes have a tendency to do both, this too shall pass but each day work harder try harder and even when you feel like you can’t go anymore hang in there.
I believe in you.
Sincerely,
Your Present Self who has not yet been disillusioned by the challenges of a life of a medical student
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