homesick

i talked to my mom on the phone today and suddenly tears began running down my face..its not even like anything is wrong..but its just that im so far from home..all by myself..and there really inst any one here..for me

i guess this is what medical school is all about finding yourself and learning to be by yourself..and i wont even say that i am overwhlemd because i am on top of everything i should be and need to be doing but its just has to do with the frustration of not reatining as much as i want to..especially after spending 6-7 hrs studying per day on weekdays

it makes me wonder hwat am i doing wrong? or am i doing anything wrong? i would say i ahve a 60-70% grasp of the infroamtion and even thoguh we are only a week in im just not happy with my progress thus far..perhaps my expectations of myself are too high..

but i just feel that i can do better..there must be a link im mising or soemthing i am not doing correctly..

now im just going to curl up in my bed..wishing i was home..but this is my dream and this is what i have always wanted..and everythin i am learning is so exciting but at the same time..i miss home..i miss my family..my bf..my firends..i just miss home..